Being toxic

Hi, I am new here and I haven't tried this before. I was desperate to release my worries and pain and I'm happy I found this community. I enjoyed reading all of the stories you shared. Some of them I can relate to.

Recently, a very close relative of mine started avoiding me. She's not the only one who's been avoiding me but how hers bothered me the most. We're really close like "sisters" close. We share everything together. I realized I have become a toxic person since everyone is avoiding me. Even my mom. My brother. All of my cousins. I want to change but, I don't know where to start.

I hope to whoever is reading this may never experience loneliness and pain.