Complicated problem 😕
Well every time I try to understand anything I find myself I understand nothing; this world is so different so confusing; and creepy. I don’t know if I am the only one who feel like this or there’s someone else feeling like me or at least feel what I’m going through because some time I feel I’m just pushing myself so hard to understand something bigger than my age or I am mature too much. but how can I stop thinking like this, I know what I need I have only two solutions to fill the void that I have the first one to earn money I need money to buy things that I like to make myself happy more clothes, food, etc.…
Or to be in relationship with someone but I’m still young I’m only 18 years old and if I’ll be in relation with someone I will only lose my time, my love, my passion, because I am afraid of losing, I am afraid if that someone someday will leave me, and lie to me, and cheat me, I know I’m strong mentally but when I love I love from the bottom of my heart, and that’s kind of bad thing, because the world outside is dangerous, they have no mercy in their heart at all
Because every time I give chance to someone with effort they lose it and disappointed me, and me too when someone give me signs, show me that he/she need my attention, I ignore them, because I don’t one be with someone to fill my void, I wanna be with someone to live and laugh and love, to support each other, be beside each other, to be with each other in the ups and downs, but it’s really complicated for me. because I have no energy to give more I need to receive to feel that me too I deserve good things I deserve love care time that there’s someone who is waiting for me love me care about me
Well we have parents but our parents feel tired from us they are too need these kind of things, but the world is selfish and more and more it become selfish and this is really not good thing and healthy because I’m tired of all these stuffs I need rest I need to feel secure, safe not alone without no one to feel the storm inside me
Even my friends have left me because of jealousy or idk what's the reasons are
@strangermj12
You are not alone, everything thinks all sorts of thoughts but a lot don't share out loud. Or it can take practise learning the skills we need to develop friendships with the right sorts of people, who can listen to us better, and we can learn to listen to them also.
I hear that you can see two options to fill the void: money/shopping and a relationship. Have you though of others? Personal interests, goals, friendships, connections? Any of these things and relationship/work often don't come automatically if we weren't taught them as a child, but we can still learn.