Confused again

This is just for me, no comments please.

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Every time things go well, something else happens that just makes me confused. It’s like I can’t help but think about the possibilities, and then I have to painfully pull my thoughts away because it “probably won’t happen.” I just think it’s time I stop judging myself for having wants. I can’t control who I love. And maybe there’s a chance he feels the same way. And actually wants to do something about it.

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This is just for me, no comments please.

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