Confused and afraid
I am a single mom and have been figuring out who I am after getting a divorce at 25. I have gone through a lot of emotional/mental/physical trauma in past relationships so I have been a lot more "picky" when it comes to dating. I took a break from dating after running into some creepy people. When I got back into it I met one person who almost tried to kidnap me and after him I dated a guy who seemed very normal at first until he admitted to admiring a character on a tv show who stalks and kills people. Both experiences have made me not want to date for a very very long time. But at the same time I still want that companionship. I'm too worried to act on it at this point because I'm afraid of attracting someone else I think is normal at first until something dramatic happens.
@AluminumSea
Hullo! (happy holidays)
These all sound like normal reactions during your circumstances, and I am so thankful you survived that! <3 <3 <3
It sounds to me like you are scared of relationships due to obvious reasons from the past, but it's confusing because you feel this longing for that companionship. These two emotions are conflicting, and you don't know how to act on them and satisfy both of them at the same time.
It also seems as you are worrying, and trying to protect yourself from getting into another dangerous situation. That, and given the fact you survived trauma, and are a single mom, I can already tell that you are a very resourceful person.
What do you think is the best thing for you right now?