Confused by myself
So I had many chances to have one but never had a boyfriend.. the problem is that every time Im out with a boy as friends I enjoy it and have fun.. and feel nothing after.. but as soon as they get you know too friendly i first dont feel anything.. you know how they say you feel butterlyes and all that but i feel disgusted.. Now the thing is I met this boy 4 years ago.. and we have been good friends ever since.. but he started having feeling for me and i kinda liked him.. but he has a girlfriend and of course i dont wanna ruin their relationship. Long story short he kinda kissed me when i was drunk and i regret it now but also dont.. and im really confused because i want and dont want anything to do with him.. should i just cut him out of my life or not.. because i just cant seem to fall in love with anyone and cant stand anyone who shows me affection..but for some reason im still not cutting him off.. u just dont know why or what to do because i know i might hurt him in the future
I'm not sure exactly how it feels, but you might be aromantic. Or it could be because you feel affection in a way that is different from most people, which is completely okay! I don't know how the dynamic between you guys is but friendships are important and I feel like this could be a drunk mistake. Try to talk it out with him, get to know what he feels and then figure out if you want something more than a friendship with him. It can be hard but it's better to think properly than do something you might regret later. You are at a place where the dynamic between you can change drastically. You could go back to being friends or could have something romantic between you but you should try to clearly figure out what you and him want.