Confused over him. Am I controlling? Help?

F26 M27 We been distant during the pandemic. We are LDR couple with 10hours different time zone. We knew each other for a year now. We haven't talked awhile in a week.

BF have bipolar type2 and it's my first time dealing with illness like this. I tried to understand and learn more about him. I really care for him. Even though we have some language barrier, I think we are okay with it.

Lately he's been dealing with depression and ignore everything around him. He said he was tired of everything. Tired of unable to meet again cuz of the virus. He just told me he hated texting while I like texting more than voice chat. Don't get me wrong, we voice chat every 3days in a week but not until lately. I don't blame him. We were unable to to work atm.

I have told him why he can't put a little effort just to check in with me, when he say don't like texting. He can even make time for his Bros and games but not me. I'm confused.

I just feel like being left out by him because he been gaming and avoid me alot. I don't really like people who game that long hours. He have this female friend who keep play game together. Whenever I ask if I can join he went defensive saying my connection is weak. I feel upset and I have no words. I feel jealous and I have no rights to control who he plays with. But deep down in me I just want to play game and get together. He just don't get it.