Depressed

pleaseeeee no comments I’m annoyed already as it is I don’t need anyone giving their opinion

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If I had told myself a year ago that my partner would ghost me for almost a year and cheat on me I wouldn’t have believed it.

and now here I am.

I feel like...I’m not lost anymore. I had to get “closure” myself. Although I don’t really believe that he’ll ghost me forever. Not after what we have been through. I think he will come back.

Either way, I fell in love with a coward.

Someone who is so broken that they’d rather run away from their own happiness than have a good life. This is the second time I’ve fallen in love with someone who wants a stupid picket fence life. We both said right from the start that we don’t play games and we don’t lie. Well. I believed him. Because he was sincere. And then I think someone, maybe his mom, whispered in his ear that he shouldn’t be with me for god only knows what reason.

no one understands because they don’t have a spiritual 5D connection. This is my literal soulmate. My soulmate is a coward. I supported him for so long. I still would. I can feel what he’s feeling and I know what he’s thinking. The guilt and shame are eating him alive. He still loves me. And yet he’s just wasting the days. He’s got issues and he wants to isolate himself. Not my problem. Doesn’t matter how much I care. He isn’t coming back based on how much we both love each other. Something has to change.

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pleaseeeee no comments I’m annoyed already as it is I don’t need anyone giving their opinion