Feel Guilty

This story is about my breakup one year ago. The breakup wasn't ended well. It started when we lost each other trust because we thought that the marriage won't never happen for us. Specifically, because of the international relationship. It's hard but we loved each other. I guess so until he hid me from his instagram. After I found out about it, I felt angry and asked him directly. But, he said he want me to forget him. I was really mad because once he said we can marriage then after that he want to leave me without saying anything. Then, I said "let's breakup"directly to him and he blocked me. I am still felling guilty until now. Do what I did before was really wrong? I was angry before 😞. I just felt guilty because I felt I lose my best friend which he doesn't want to talk with me until now. I know we already separated but I hope he doesn't have a bad feeling toward me. I am sorry 😞