Feeling Foolish
I am not sure if this is even the right place to post this. I joined this group hoping to find someone who wont judge me. I have been in a relationship for 14 years. It has been nothing but a roller coaster ride. One one of our many breaks I found out I was pregnant. For the sake of my son I decided to give this relationship my all. But I am the only on who is. My BF is distant, doesnt want to commit and makes me feel awful about myself. We havent shared a room in over 6 years. He just decided one day that he wanted his own space. We never go anywhere and we barely communicate except when we fight about him being on porn sites all of the time. See he would rather watch porn then have a sexual relationship with me. This makes me feel worthless. I feel like I am to fat, ugly or old. I cant afford to leave him, but I am afraid the longer I stay in this relationship the more depressed I will become. Thanks for letting me vent.
@ambitiousPlane3637 Why do you stay with someone if it is only making you unhappy? Is your son still underage? He has to pay child support then. Are you working? Right now it is not hard to find a job. And becoming a single parent, you would qualify for government benefits based on income. I grew up with a single mother and had friends who were also single mothers. Relying a man who does nothing but bring you down is just useless. And don't be embarassed asking for help! You will be making a better environment for your son as well. Living in all that tension and negativity is not good. I've also struggled in my early 20's to find a place to live while working at a hospital cleaning. The money was good, but I was young and didn't save well. I ended up renting the downstairs of this duplex in a really ghetto neighborhood. But, I got out of it eventually. Sometimes you gotta struggle to get to a better situation. Being around a husband like that is not good for you or your son though. I hope you figure something out. <3
