Feeling like I'm a pawn
I have been on and off with my "ex" bf for 3 years now. I have been lied to and cheated on more then one can image. Yet I always think he will change because he admits he has a problem and has been trying to work on it. There is so much more to the story but I dont think I can explain it all now. I know there have been a million red flags and I am scared to be alone so I settle for the toxicness. We had just talked about giving each other space so we can work more on ourselves. Well I guess in those 2 days of being at our own places he already brings another girl to start to stay at his place. I'm just having a really hard time writing this now. It hurts. I tried to talk to him so see what is going on. He doesnt say anything he responds with a sentence here or there. I told him he never broke up with me how can he do this. He now messages me saying that he has my belongings packed and refuses to answer about if I should get them is he going to drop them off. Nothing. He messages and says that I should respect his feelings and be happy for him?!? Umm what! What am i suppose to be happy about?
I’m so sorry this is happening to you and I hope you heal soon. Sometimes when we’re deeply in love, we make up excuses to defend them and pretend the red flags don’t mean anything and we’ll see some change eventually because they’re not always this mean to us. People will take advantage of us when they notice how vulnerable we are. You deserve better, you deserve respect. You need to put yourself first, value yourself and stay away from anything that brings you pain or negative energy. There’s someone amazing out there for you but you wouldn’t find that person and experience all the love if you’re after someone who barely cares. You will be fine. -hugs-
Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm hoping that I will find the strength each day to push forward and not run back. I know I'm a good person and I deserve more but I'm unsure what that is due to always choosing the toxic relationships. But I guess one day I'll finally realize it. Thank you again!!