Feeling unworthy

Deciding to leave was my hardest decision.

Over the past years I meet somebody that I didn't know would have big impact in my life. We started as best friend but I didn't know he liked me. After a couple months I started to think he was cute and gave him a chance everything was good and all of sudden he wasn't into me anymore. Fast forward a couple months and we decided to fix thing but he had mad a new best friend and she didn't like me and after a while he ended up leaving me again because of her. Me being dumb decided to give him another chance around this time he was unemployed I constantly had to pay for his thing and even send him money from time to time. We decided to make it official but after a month things just started feeling weird he would choose him friends over me and barely made time, when I addressed certain topic is was a problem and I couldn't be open about how I felt. Fast forward past the holiday and everything he decided to break up with me again after a few weeks came back asked me for money and they cut me off again. I didnt understand what I did wrong I try my best to be good to him. After being blocked for a month he reached out and wanted to fix things but I decided to walk away he took so much from my life and it just feel weird being without him and not having anybody to talk to when I'm feeling down.