Games

This is just for me, no comments please.

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He didn’t treat me this way before. But he’s been saying things to me just to get a reaction. So basically, he...I don’t even know if it’s worth explaining. But I guess I will. Yesterday he sent me a picture of himself at the bar (I could tell by the bathroom mirror which had a beer poster on it). I don’t rly know why he sent the picture. He didn’t say he was at the bar but I was like how are things at the bar. He has a drinking problem, otherwise it wouldn’t be a big deal. He was like yeah it’s great etc. then he said can I call you tonight? It was already late but my work hours are strange so I was literally going to be up all night to prep for work. So I was like yeah sure. He never calls me. Not too surprising. His word sadly doesn’t mean much anymore.

So today he texted me and didn’t say anything about last night. I just said btw I’ll be up late tonight if you wanted to talk. Then he apologized for not calling, something about him dropping his phone in a weird spot in his car. I was like it’s okay, no worries. Because he obviously wanted a big reaction from me. Cuz his response was that he is going to be w his girlfriend tonight so likely he won’t be able to talk. My original thought was, I wasn’t the one who even wanted to talk. He wanted to call me. So why tell me all this? Why not just say no I’m busy but how about tomorrow? But instead of giving a reaction I just was like oh okay. And I thought he wouldn’t text me again but he did. He was like hey I’m catching up w my girlfriend right now, but we can text in between. I did not respond to that. He obviously wanted my attention. He wanted me to call him out on him sharing these details with me. But I didn’t. I am proud of myself.

Whats really crazy about this is, if I had told him in the past (when we were together) about this happening to me, hypothetically with someone else, he would have been appalled. He would have held me close and said he would never do anything like that to me.

I am convinced that he’s lost his mind. I just can’t believe how strange he’s acting.

im talking to him but idk how long it’ll last. He might snap at me, for who knows what. I don’t have a good answer as to why I continue to text him. At first it was to get closure. Now I don’t know. I think he is my soulmate and he lost me. He doesn’t know what he wants. I think he wanted me to text him in between talking w his girlfriend because he wanted us both in a sick way. He already admitted they want a poly relationship.

The things he says...he drops these hints. I’m not going to let him string me along. I’m not going to let him have control over me. I said what I needed to say, he said he can’t commit to me even tho he loves me. So we decided on friendship.

Im just...still a little in shock at his behavior. but I think I’m doing the right thing. I would regret not talking to him. For now.

He won’t get help. That’s not my fault.

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This is just for me, no comments please.

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