Have I lost him?
Our relationship was really good expect for the fighting. We didn't fight over anything big or serious. I just had a hard time explaining my feelings and I would get upset and emotional and then he would get upset and not listen. We got into a big fight one day and he broke up with me out of impulse. I was heart broken he even returned most of my things. I don't want to break up I still love him and I know we can work on our issues but he said even though he loves me "it's not enough" I looked up some stuff and learned about the no contact rule and decided to do it because I agreed time was the best thing. He did message me on the 10th day of no contact but his message was so confusing and I'm scared. He wants to talk and hopes I do too and apologized for taking so long to get a hold of me and told me about his car but he didn't say about what. For all I know he still has resentment and just wants to empty his mind and try to end on "good terms" but I don't want that I want to work it out and I'm scared to death because I can't handle the conversation he might want. And I know everyone keeps telling me to ask but I'm not ready. I guess I just want to know if it can work out or if there's hope he does want to get back together that I'm not seeing. I'm so scared I lost the love of my life and I'm terrified to find out the truth because what if I've lost him for good.... It hurts and I'm just scared.....
@Broken94647. Hey, itll be okay. Im going through something similar in the sense that my boyfriend and I were together for over a year and 3 months and hes decided he wanted to take a break because hes slowly loosing interest but he still loves me he says, he just needs time to think and that this break will let us know if its meant to be and we will get back together or we will end altogether. I know its hard, and I know youre feeling scared too, trust me Im beyond scared no matter how hard I put on a brave face and were trying to work things out while respecting each others space, but you just got to have faith in yourself and simply ask. Youll only cause yourself to have more confusion and uneasiness the longer you go asking the question. If it truly is the end, lift your head up high and keep on going. I know itll be extremely hard, but remember who you are and that you have friends and family for you too. Dont give up and just talk things out, who knows, if you guys have a genuine heart to heart conversation things could work out in the end!
@Jazmine03 IDK if your still on here I realize I never came back and forgot all about this post until recently. Unfortunately it didn't end well and I spiraled instead of coming back and reaching for help. I really appreciated your optimism tho. But for what it's worth after all this time it was for the best. I'm in a much better place now and as much as it all sucked it was worth it. I stuck with my job and worked my way to the top, I'm now engaged to my middle school crush and we're expecting a baby boy in February. I hope your doing well and everything turned out for the best for you as well. And I'm not sure if anyone was even following my post but I figured an update would be nice and hopefully uplifting for someone. It does get better and I've learned to not be afraid of starting over because if it wasn't meant to be than that part of your life never started in the first place. I always thought ending it ment ending me but it actually started my snowball effect into actually starting my life. I wouldn't have started my job had I not met him and when we broke up is when I realized everyone at my job had become my family and they took care of me and then I stayed and moved up to management and met my best friend and upon meeting her helped me find the courage to finding my now fiancee and after three years of being together build a foundation to start our family. As much as it hurt and absolutely sucked it needed to happen. It wasn't an end it was the final step to the rest of my life. I'm not the gushy fairytale type and trust me I saw no light at the end of tunnel but now that I'm here I wished I had remained hopeful Instead if letting it beat me down because I ended up missing out on a lot because of it. Be kind to yourself and trust it's not an ending but a beginning. <3