Help Please

I think I've been a victim of abuse and need help to fathom out what the Hell happened and whether or not I'm going mad.

If there's anyone out there who can relate please join. I'm not looking to bitch about exes. I just need support to make sense of what's going on in my head right now.

_{[Edited by QuietMagic 12/30/21 per PD subcommunity guidelines on stigmatizing content]}