How do I even explain.. (trigger)
I was seeing this guy for like just under a year sleeping with him... bla bla yeah you get the just.
We were never official but he acted like my boyfriend pretty much. Long story short I got pregnant I'm pro choice so if your not pro choice that's okay just stop reading now, he forced me too get a abortion gave me 0 choice guilt tripped me basically said I'd ruin his life.. so I did it . I mean I already had a 5month old so it was the right decision.
Fast forward 7 months it happened again yes I was on birth control 😭.. this time I said to him if you dont wanna be a dad cool walk away now... he started saying if I had the baby I'd get kicked over and all this stuff being horrible.. then changed and said hed support me through it .. he didnt as soon as i got it done. A week later he was in bed with someone else 😪.. he was horrible too me telling me I was fucked in the head and all this nasty nasty stuff for months. Then after I completely just ghosted him he messaged me " sorry " now hes tryna be nice too me but says he doesnt want anything from me just too he friends. How can someone do this too me... and I'd still let them back into my life 😪 I seriously need to break away and stop having feelings for him but I just cant its ruining me i cant sleep, I'm always sad like i just dont know what too do 💔
@Shay623
Love makes us do strange things at times. Although we can't choose whom to have those feelings for, but a relationship with them or to allow them any control over our life is always a conscious choice. It sounds like you tried and failed to get loyalty from this man at a very heavy price to your own physical and emotional well being. Some people are simply incapable of honour or loyalty and we can't teach it to them. It's upto you to set standards for your life and guide your actions towards that path. If you feel you're happier without him in your life maybe it's time to broaden your network of supportive people ... family, friends, coworkers, etc.
You have a one year old that needs you to be a happy mum. I'm sharing a few self help guides here, have a read when you get some time. I hope something in there can help you on the next steps.
https://www.7cups.com/breakup-advice/
https://www.7cups.com/boundaries/
https://www.7cups.com/grief/
https://www.7cups.com/sleeping-well/
Good Luck!