I don't know if I did the right thing.

We only knew each other for 3 months and we started out dating and it was great up until she said she wasn't ready for a relationship and is emotionally unavailable. She told me alot of personal issues but I never heard the term emotionally unavailable . We stayed friends but then she had so many of these hot and cold moments, trying to push me away or one minute she would be happy but then do a complete 180 and confuse me. I helped her out financially, tried to talk to her about these issues, the gut wrenching and I feel dumb for doing this is me buying Christmas gifts for her. I just wanted to show she means something and that I care for her as a friend.

All while this up and down roller coaster is happening I'm researching what it means for someone to be emotionally unavailable and reading stories of people who have dealt with people like this. I should have listened to all this advice and moved on but instead I've been hurt and my depression is back once again.

I cut ties with her yesterday, she was ignoring my text since Christmas. Its weird even though I've been hurt through this, I feel awful that I cut ties with her. I did leave the door open and said if she needs to reach out she can but I feel even more depressed that I had to do that. She thinks she is leading me on and I told her she's not, I even went as far as saying to her it feels like you have a wall up and you won't communicate which she agreed. Then she shut down again saying I'm not in a good space right now. My last text was I'll give you the space you need especially if you think you're leading me on and if you need to reach out you still can I'll still be a friend. Her last text was thanks.

I don't know why I would want a person like this back in my life, I guess its mainly because I'm alone and don't have any friends. Initially after saying everything I needed to say about her and me and just giving her space and that I won't contact her unless she contacts me I felt like a weight was removed from my shoulder but now I'm hurt again because I don't have anyone to talk to.

Do emotionally unavailable people come back? She told me she is trying to figure out her life but I just don't get why she would feel like she was leading me on when we were just being friends. I'm guessing she was holding in her feelings about me.

I apologize for the long post I've been crying all night and I hate crying as a man I'm just hurt and confused