I feel like a horrible partner.

I just recently started dating an old friend last week. He says hes happy with me, and hes very understanding. I think I love him. Im very happy with him. He encourages me to do better and he believes in me. Everything has been just fine so far.

But I cant help but feel like a bad partner. Im not the most emotionally available. Im not super kind like he is. I have MDD and severe anxiety too, so when I vent to him occasionally I just feel like a burden. Im not anxious about him or our relationship, I dont let my mental illness affect things too much, but the fact that I even talk about it with him makes me feel horrible.

I feel like Im not doing enough, and yet I also feel like Im too much. Its just very difficult for me to be super loving and kind with all of the trauma Ive faced. How can I be kinder? How can I show him I love him when Im not completely emotionally available? Im very comfortable with our relationship, Im just not comfortable with myself.

Thank you for reading, I just needed to get that off of my chest. Hope you all have a nice day/night ♥︎