I messed up

I’m a 21(M) who has felt I have wasted a lot of time in my life and my previous relationships have been awful, I just got out of a nasty relationship over three months where I was lied too and cheated on by her and we moved on. About a month ago I met another girl at her college (I had friends attending) and we hit it off very well she was really into me and we were having a lot of fun, but I was still rattled with insecurities and trust issues from my previous relationship, I our relationship was long distance, there was physical intimacy but no sex, and we tried to take it slow, but I was always asking where are you, did u eat today, and questions that made me seem controlling, she then sent me this message as we were talking in the phone (and I knew the breakup was coming(the gut feeling was there)) “I just think we rushed into things too quickly my mind has been all over the place for the last couple of days and I just think this is not what I need right now and it has nothing to do with you or anything it’s just I’m in college now and I haven’t even had a time to breath and adjust to this new part of my life and to just add you into the mix and the fact that I’m going to have to get a job soon I just know I’m not going to have any time for you and that’s not fair to you I’m so sorry I wish I could just ignore this feeling but I just can’t I’m so sorry you deserve better than what I can give you and I know if I did this over the phone or in person I wouldn’t be able to. just doing this breaks my heart in general because I never wanted to hurt you I still don’t want to hurt you and I hope we can stay friends but I don’t know if you’re gonna hate me for doing this I’m just so sorry.”

then we tried to move into friends and agreed wasn’t really ready for that because I have an emotionally moved on from this break up so I texted her “Hey…so I want you to know that I will be removing you from my contacts. Reason why is not because of you I don’t think that u did anything wrong I am doing this for my own mind to move on in the most healthy way possible. I have zero hard feelings and I just want you to know that I think your a great person and I wish you all the best.” Then I blocked her on all social media/contacts And then she started crying and her friends told my friends how bad I made her feel and I’m guilt I sent this message. “Hey I just checked my phone and read from Pedro that you wanted to talk, whenever your free let me know.”But I didn’t get a response back, and felt like whatever needed to be said was said so I doubled down and sent I said what I said I need some space, But speaking/snapping you is not helping me heal from the breakup. I’m going to need some space and time for myself.

and now I feel awful because I knew I went into this relationship fucked up and it wasn’t fair she had to deal with me, so now I have her blocked and I’m working on myself and trying to heal from the breakup. I would like to try a relationship with her again, or at least get back on talking terms but I know I need to stick to my blocking or else I will be the one who becomes a stalker/needy. So I plan to message her again in a few weeks(3-4) and try to salvage something even a friendship, but damn I fucked this one up,

can I get some thoughts, reactions, how you feel I handled it, if u have questions, let me know, I can discuss how we talked, and I apologized for the controlling nature while we were together, the relationship was only a month but I feel like it wasn’t fair.