I miss my partner

Hi everyone, hope you guys having a good time. I just want to share my story, a year ago from now I was in a relationship with a girl which I got to know through a dating site or rather app. We were in touch for approx 10 months in which 3 of those month we were in a relationship. And I'm not gonna lie, though never admitted. I enjoyed every bit of those 10 months. Both as a friend and a boyfriend. Close to after those final moments of those relationship, since it was a secret for both of our familes her brother got to know about it. And due to some unfortunate situation and a community we belong from, she was forced to choose between me or her studies/career. The other night than all this happened, she calls me continuously crying, I'm trying to calm her down. In the end, we ended breaking up because I didn't wanted to be the cause that troubled her life and career since we're still under 20. Today, it's now over a year after that incident. We broke up when we didn't wanted to. I barely ever talked to her afterwards cuz I felt like staying away would be the best for her and me too. Afterwards, I many times tried going into another relationships, It's like I start and the other person shows interest but I always stop at a certain point and don't want to proceed. Even today, I miss her though I will never admit it anywhere, it felt like this is the best place to do. I shared all this cuz she was the one who introduced me to 7cups. Now trying to help whoever I can.