I'm just a mess
Well I finally managed to convince myself to try and meet new people despite all the issues im dealing with. To start im in my head 95% of the time either overthinking or beating myself up. Then i realize that I'm not attractive in anyway and want to shut down, go home, eat way too much and lock myself in my room. I really want to get a handle on all my issues so i can have a normal conversation with someone, but it just seems like such a massive and impossible task. At the end of the day it just feels like I'm never going to meet the right person and I'll just end up being alone for the rest of my life.
Hi, I just want to assure you that you're not alone when it comes to overthinking and beating ourselves up. I used to think this way, like I'm unattractive and just want to eat everything. Sometimes I still get like that. I'm friendly upfront, but it's hard for me to make close friends because I worry a lot about what others think. Sometimes, I just got to let go. I do have a few friends who likes some parts of who I am, which I'm fine with. I have a hubby who accepts all of my mess.
I want to leave you with this: you are a BEAUTIFUL mess whether any one thinks it or not.