I'm so stressed

9 years ago i had a LDR with a guy that i loved we were a teenagers back then .. so i didn't know much about love and i just didn'y give him love or care because i wasn't even knowing what i have to do or not .. anyways we broke up i dont even remember how.. but i hurt his feelings and we didnt talk for years we got i touch again in 2014 and then i dont know what happened i feel bad that i dont even remember because it wasn't a serious thing as i saw it. This year i talked to him at march and we got back together i am so in love with him that i cant even think about anything else but him and when i told him my feelings he said he also have the same feelings for me but he never shows it he talk fine but when it comes to saying i love you or talking romantic with him he ignore it he dont wanna say it too but he also says he wants me but never show that which makes me feel so bad because i dont know how i cant imagine myself with someone but him but i feel like he might just want to get revenge or hurt me like i did to him in the past i asked alot if he is mad at me because of that and he ignore it and dont wanna talk about it .. and when i try to ask him if he really wanna be with me he say yes but he also dont show any care last week i said many things that were in my heart because i had enough of how cold he act i said you and you and now i regret because he ignored all of it ... i said i wont talk to him again but everytime i say that i miss him so much that i cry and feel like i wanna text him again ..