In love with someone I've never met

Yesterday I broke up with my long distance boyfriend whom I have never met. We have broken up so many times but now we are over for good. It hurts so much because we were about to meet each other and make plans for our future. I made him stop loving me because I was incredibly jealous of his female friends and I forced him to leave them all. Also i was asking him stupid questions about jealousy as a result he got tired of me. I am full of regrets and I want him back. This break up has influenced my life and I only want to cry. I love him so much and it is killing me that I will never meet him😔