I regret everything i didn't say

I can't believe that I had the chance to know you, you're everthing that I ever wanted. No matter how much I try to deny this, I do love you. You made it to my list, and you ticked them all, you're a substantial human being, and you're a beautiful soul.

I wish I told you.. that every morning I woke up next to you was my favorite mornings, that I cuddled up next to you, that I could hear your heart beat, that I could smell and brushed your hair.. and that I could watched you breathing, your eyes were still closed, I wish that it was me you're dreaming.

I wish I told you.. that you scared me, that you're so real and you're here with me.. it terrifies me. How I can't deal of the fear of losing you, how painful it would be just to be able to see your back walking away from me.

I wish I told you.. that I want our dreams come true. Holding your hands around the world, go to our adventure together, and we can leave the city after, move to the country side, have our dogs and build our own home and fill it with laughter.

I wish I told you.. that I love your smile, that I can't get enough of those twinkles on your eyes when you talk about your passion. How you want the world to change, how you dream of a peaceful world, how willing you are to take an action.

I wish I thank you enough.. for being mine, for wanting to know me, for taking care of me, for telling me how beautiful I am, for reminding me of my dreams.

I wish I thank you more.. for being decent, for being more, and for being your best.

I wish told you that you're my everything. I wish I said that I love you, that I want you, and I really want you in my life. That you're the only warmth I feel in my heart.

But I didn't...