I've lost

I've had a fiance...

She cheated on me and ruined my health. We've been together for 3 years.... we almost had a child but it died...so we've had a rought time....but we overcame it togethet... I still love her no matter what happened because that is my curse....Many things happened to me early in life so i decided to stop loving because someone died someone who was really close to me and i still blame myself for that. But when i was 18 she showed up and changed my life to better life. But 4 months back she cheated she said that our relationship was not like on the begginig thats logical to me because it is never the same but i tried to be the best man she ever had but i think i failed this...so my depresion started...her sister told me that she went to abortion because she was expecting another child with me..... for the past 4 months i was trying to get her back i apologized for what happened i forgave her even when she didnt say sorry im still trying to get her back everybody is telling me to stop but i cant and i wont even if it kills me one day... i made a promise that i will be there for her no matter what and i wil keep that promise till i die. I love her so much it is worth for that pain ? Who knows even i don't i just want to make her dreams come true because that is my dream to be there for her even she wont ever love me back...