Newly wed

I love my husband to bits. Before marriage I was told it was just gonna be us and sometimes his dad at the house. But that's not the case. His grandparents and parents are here. It's very difficult but I'm getting used to it. I hate being controlled and that's one thing I told him before the wedding and now I'm not myself. I'm somebody else. I don't even know if it's temporary. It's like this since day one. I miss my life and I miss how happy I was. I cry every single day now. Things are going bad for my husband at work. He's quite stressed. He hasn't gotten his salary in months. We haven't been on honeymoon. I can't even afford a maybelline foundation. The financial stress has gotten into him. He is getting easily annoyed and angry at me. He doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't wanna spend time with me like he used to. He gets mad at me for eveyrhing. I'm feeling very suicidal right now. I'm young. I was ready for eveyrhing because of all the love he gave me initially. Now I'm stuck here with his family and him avoiding me. I Have tendency to harm myself. What did I ever do to end up like this. My whole life is depressing. I thought after marriage things would get better. I thought I'd finally be loved and won't be a burden for anyone. Nothing has changed. It's just worse now. I don't know what to do. I don't wanna tell my family what I'm going through. If they come to know they'll be really upset. I don't know what to do. I'm begging him for love.