No comments please; venting

Please do not comment just because I can’t take anything right now. I don’t know how much more I can cry. I’m in so much pain. I know he reads my messages. I know he still loves me, I know deep down that he is listening. But I’ve never been tested like this before. I am a very strong person. So why am I crumbling? If I cry more, I won’t be able to stop.