Out of Control
I cannot control myself in the relationship and cannot break up with her :/
We have been dating for almost a year but she is not as she sold herself to me. She is completely different person and I am one of those people who cannot say No.
After we started dating she misbehaved me and when i told her i need some good words and cuddling she always tells me that i should know that she loves me even though she does not say. When i tell her that it is something she needs to do, she told me fot couple of times that i should and can just leave.
After some time with helps of my friends, I told her that we will never fix these problems and i am more active person than her. When i say active i mean i want love words and physical touch. She told me that she will fix these problems and tried real hard.
At the end, her way of thinking is completely different than me. I am having trouble with explaning myself and she does not care.
The worst thing is that she have terrible experiences with her parents so she started to bound me really hard but she is still mean and unsensetive with my feelings. When i start telling her some issues, she starts defending herself and never focuses on fixing.
I really want to break up but whenever i start the conversatikn for it, she starts cying and telling me that she will never be loved and she will never find the one. I am trying to brrak up since April but i just cannot. I do not like making someone so miserable that she thinks her life will be disaster.
These days i feel like i never have control over our relationship. She decides if we are happy or not and she decides what is good or not. I am trying to avoid having sex because i know it will be more difficult after that but i am running out of time.
@flyngobjct could try couples counseling or maybe a break from one another
