Pushed

I'm in a relation for 4 year with a man I truly love. He makes me laugh and smile and feel loved. But he has also hurt me emotionally. He cheated on me with his ex. He has two wonderful children with her. But he lied to me about his plans for the weekend. He took his kids on a daddies weekend but she taged along and they cheated. Three weeks later he tells me she was pregnant. She didn't keep the baby. That was a year ago this weekend. He went to counseling. And we have been working on things trying to move past it all. But I'm not ready to forgive or trust him fully. A week ago he moved out and into his grandmas. Said he felt like I was being to over bearing and I needed to work on myself so that I can start to trust him again or he's done. He says he feels like I'm suffocating him. That I don't let him do the things he loves to do anymore. Some part of that is true. I have been not wanting him to go out with his friends. I do need to work on losing the trust leash. It's hard for me to open up and let go of the past.