Still confused

This is just for me. No comments please.

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I don’t really feel like I got any true answers from my ex about things. Even after everything that happened and us becoming friends…there are red flags everywhere. I don’t feel like I had the privilege to get angry at him, or to be upset. I had to be the adult in the conversation because he was being a child. He avoids issues. He strung me along which I still don’t understand. Because he doesn’t want me enough to be with just me. So why? It makes no sense. He basically is really selfish and the only thing that matters to him is his well being. And yet!! He is so upset and hates himself and has such low self esteem that he is depressed. He also hates what he did to me. It makes him depressed. So like why.

I’m trying to think about what to ask him. I want to ask him something to get a clear answer although that never happens.

I don’t think I could go through what I went through with him for a second time. I don’t think I could. As much as I love him and still do it’s just messed up. He’s messed up.

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This is just for me. No comments please.

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