Traumatised by relationships

Me and this guy hit it off at club. Went home he ws nice didn't try anything and we just cuddled a kissed for a lil. Our convo was nice too he was a bit intelligent which i like as i am quite smart. But afterwards i dont know why i feel likr i dont like him anymore, like i enjoyed his company but maybe it was just cos i was waved. Basically i dont rly chat to many guys but i do want to find someone and a lot of ppl move to me but this guy was nice. after hanging out like once i start to hate them i domt kmow why. I had a relationship once beforr and i did really like him but i have never really felt that type of way again - this was a couple years ago and started a bit before my father was heavy with domestic violence. That failed relationship which was kind of my safety network at the time plus my parents has traumatizd me.

Btw i liked my ex a lot we didn't for a long time but it was very meaningful and he was most of the timr so nice to me and helped me deal with the whole family problems thing. But he was mean as well and didn't really care about my feelings . He got drunk and kissed another girl. I broke up with him. He was moving to other girls after. It was a very mess situation i felt very betrayed. I am completely over it now can only remember it when i think hard. But maybe it has contributed to my problems.

I just domt ubderstand why everytime i meet a boy i 'like' i hate them after.