Triggered

This is just for me, no comments please.

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Im really struggling right now. I feel like I’m getting triggered by everything. My ex contacted me and like...he’s obviously confused. His self esteem is low and he’s going through depression etc. But it’s like he doesn’t want to know what I’ve been through. I don’t know why he wants to be friends with me. I don’t get it. If he’s happy with someone else then why? Which leads me to believe he still sees a future with me. At the same time this isn’t healthy for me. And I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t love themselves.

He broke my trust and my heart. I think he is very confused. The only good thing in his life apparently is the other girl and now me I suppose. but do I really want to go down this road? Like do I rly want to be the one to be “friends” with him and lift him up or whatever? I have no idea.

I still haven’t even had a proper conversation with him. There’s more I need to know before I just let him get even remotely close to me again.

im not prepared.

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This is just for me, no comments please.

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