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This is just for me, no comments please.

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He finally did it. He finally texted me. He is ashamed of what he’s done. He’s apparently got a lot to say but still doesn’t know how to say it.

It’s strange to feel so relieved and yet so sad at the same time. Sad that it took him this long to get over his self esteem issues. And he’s still not completely over it.

It’s depressing to me. I know I should be just relieved. I shouldn’t complain. But I can’t help it.

I think about what I want, and I hear confusion. I used to know. I still just want him. But there’s this other part of me that questions...is he even ready for that?

and now, for the first time in a long while, when I get a new text, my heart beats faster.

I kept my faith.

i should go

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This is just for me, no comments please.

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