Wanting to Move Forward

Hello everyone, I am reaching out because I feel like I just need someone to talk to. I have been through counselling which seemed to have helped in the past, but I feel that I still have a lot of work to do when it comes to myself, my anxiety and coping with past traumas. I just need to talk with someone that will listen objectively.
I have always had depression and anxiety. This stems from a mentally/verbally abusive relationship with my mother, a physically, mentally and verbally abusive relation ship with both my step-father and step-mother, as well as abandonment issues from my biological father. Right now, however, its all being triggered by my husband. My husband is a good man and loves me very much, please dont misunderstand that, but he has had his own issues that hes admits to and is currently working on.
In the past he has been unfaithful. The most recent was in 2016. While in a way Im kind of happy that it happened, It snapped us back into focus of one another and made us realize that we really dont want to lose each other, and although I know its all in the past, Im having a really hard time moving on. Some days are good, others are not so much and Im reaching out to have someone to just talk to about it. To have someone that will listen when I'm feeling helpless and broken. To potentially help with letting this all go, to heal, grow and move forward.