What brought me here

The last 12 months have been hell for our relationship. 3 miscarriages, my husbands brother committed suicide, two other family deaths.

not one time, for any event, have we connected in any sense. In fact, hes decided he would rather get divorced than go to therapy. Constantly getting mad at me, constantly being disrespectful. Its as if hes trying to make me get divorced. We can go weeks without talking let alone touching. Im at a loss and I am always the bad guy no matter whats happening.