What do you think?

So i have this friend and in my opinion we are close and ever since we graduated high school we still text each other till today and even though we go to different uni we still manage to update each other on our lives. Plus we also meet each other when we have The chance. The thing is she isn't the most transparent person like when she was gonna move to another country she didn't tell me and I had to know from another person. That time I swept it under the rug cause that was the first time and maybe she just didn't wanna tell. But then, few years later her dad passed away and I know it might be too selfish of me to think of it but she also didn't tell me, I literally knew about it after a person told me. To think of it she also never told me anything about how she feels meanwhile every time when I feel something I always tell her. It sort of makes me feel like a terrible friend cause I also never asked about how she felt. The thing is it scares me because I fear one day something is gonna happen and once again I wouldn't know from her.