confused sad need advice

hello all! firstly im sorry about my bad english.

Im female lesbain from soceity doesnt accept that, i don't know how to start my story ..

i like the traineur of my club sport but i didnt say that to her from three months when she felt that from that time she tried to seduce me by take caring of herself dressing and make up on seance on her club and she look at me all the seance she is the monitrice of sport so sometimes i said to her words that means i like her without saying that in real and she doesnt refused but from the begining of juanury i felt that there is change in her traiting how? from 10 day she didnt practise sport and she asked my friends to train us and she doesnt stay with us when we finished i asked her why you didnt she say that is ill..after that i go to take shower when i finish i found her that she went out yo her house so i sent her a message at that night and she answered me at same night and i called her on the morning of other day she answered me and i sent her message and she answered but the last message was a poesie but she didnt answered me so i closed my whatssap until now and i didny go to her club two seance but last saturday i went and i saw her that she is without make up and she is like upset so i trained when i finish i ask her why she is upset she said that she doesnt have energy i said to her that isnt real you are upset she said from long time i said to her hhat she is contradictoire she said to me if she say something contradictoire to me i said no you