used and taken advantage of

hey everyone! I wanted to share my story with you all. for the past two years I have only been interested in one person, I thought he was perfect for me and he thought the same about me. things started off great between us and he told me that he wanted to be in a relationship with me, which surprised me because I wasn’t looking to be with anyone at that time as I was still attached to someone else I was with. he helped me get over that person and I thought this guy could be the one I spend my life with. few months later he says his ex talked to him and he felt he didn’t do things right with her and wanted to right his wrongs for closure. I used to be someone who always tried to be kind and understanding even if it was hard, and I told him to figure out what he needed to figure out and that I wasn’t upset with him. fast forward about 3 weeks later he texts me and says that things didn’t work out between them and that he really regrets leaving me and was once again very sorry to put me through this. I was still very attached to him and I said yes to trying again. things were okay after that, not the same but not bad. few months later I find out he was talking to another woman, I just left without saying anything to him. few months after that he texts me again and asks me to hang out. I said yes, was still very attached to him. after a long few months (almost 6) of us hanging out I started asking about a relationship, and he told me he did not want to because he was moving away. I said okay but I don’t feel comfortable doing relationship things with you if you aren’t going to be in a relationship with me. we stopped talking. september of 2021 he texts me and tells me that he was always in love with me and asks me to hang out. I said yes. however we never got to do so because once I started asking about a relationship he stopped texting as much, would take almost a whole week to answer me, and would cancel hanging out with me. he said he wasn’t ready for a relationship and had commitment issues, but also told me he dated someone else in the time we weren’t talking. I told him I felt like he was lying and he would get angry, and when he stopped showing me as much effort I got angry and went off on him via text out of frustration. he blocked my phone number. he blocked me on social media. everywhere. this destroyed me. I never want to go through something even similar to that again. then I find out yesterday that my friend said he had another woman on his story and it looked to be his girlfriend. I just want to crawl in a hole. to find out this way that I was just being lied to and taken advantage of makes me feel so stupid and worthless. it’s just like why didn’t he try for me? when he does for others? I just don’t understand why this happened when he could’ve just told me from the beginning that I wasn’t what he wanted instead of doing the exact opposite and leading me on. I don’t understand what he gains from that. I don’t understand any of this. I feel like i’ve hit a new rock bottom. I wake up to my chest and stomach hurting. I feel like i’m never going to find someone else or ever be able to move on from this. it’s like if him blocking you didn’t make you move on then what will? I don’t know, i’m just at such a low place in my life right now.