work, college, & still heartbroken

Here's a little back story.

this guy and I were on and off for a while bc we had a lot of complications at first. Like at first when we were talking he blocked me out of the blue & when I confronted him about it .. he said it was bc he was involved with someone else. I forgave him & we began talking again. He disappeared yet again so I didnt bother this time. But he came back & we started talking yet again. but then a few days later he told me he reconciled with a girl he had strong feelings for so I told him it was fine, & I wished him well. but things didnt work out with her & we remained friends so we talked about it.

We became good friends (bc after all that I didnt think I could trust him again) and we hung out. Talked all the time. But like one day when we were hanging out he kissed me .. and I kissed him back he later told me he really likes me and that he felt bad for all that happened in the past so he didnt want to hurt me again bc he said that he gave me every reason to let him go but I didnt. we talked more often. Told each other everything. And eventually we fell in love with each other. It was amazing. Everything felt so right and so real with him. ​

But after a few months it got hectic bc of me .. and we decided that we would be just friends for now until we figure out what we really want in life. so we were letting go despite the fact we were so in love. ive never felt so much pain in my life. Letting go has been so hard bc hes always on my mind. Hes the man of my dreams.hes someone Im always going to love and care about. We ended on good terms and I just miss him so much. Even he said he was just unsure about everything in his life .. which hurt me like a knife sliced th my heart. I still love him with every broken piece in me. but recently he blocked me again .. and then unblocked me and messaged me and when I asked he said it was bc he needed time and space to heal and seeing what we were posting or our life updates was to much to handle.

Which I understood and forgave again.. But he also said that hes ready to be friends.. which surprised me. I checked up on him a few days ago.. when I asked how he was he said hes well, just taking things a day at a time .. which honestly tells me that maybe he hasnt fully let go yet. silly, right? Idk deep down I feel like hes the one for me. But I dont want to live on hope. I want to let go. I want to move on. Bc he even said that if its meant to be .. well get back together. I love him so much ..

I just dont know what to do anymore.

If anyone had any advice .. Please help me.

I appreciate your time.