idk

I know this isnt a huge problem and Im aware that there are so many other teens there with bigger problems. Its just I feel so lonely sometimes and I hate that I cant control my feelings. Anyway theres this guy. Hes my bestfriends cousin. We see eachother everyday due to school and we always hang and I have strong ass feelings for him :)) He always makes me smile and even during the worst times he can make me laugh. Hes extremely hard to read so I dont know if he feels the same way about me. Im not sure I want to be in a relatinship with him but I just really want him to reciprocate the feeling of infatuation i guess but im not sure ughhhhhhsbfjsnend