Hospitalization for depression and anxiety

Hey guys, im 19 years old. I got diagnosed with bi polar depression when i was 17 and anxiety when i was 18. It's been such a long road and it just keeps getting harder. I've been put on 3 different pills and I end up not taking them because they Make me feel like a zombie. I talked to my boyfriend last night about being hospitalized and evaluated to see what medication I need and if i really have what I've been diagnosed with. does anyone know how to go about being hospitalized for this? I hate going and getting help because the people act like you're going to kill yourself and that you're different. you'd be surprised what I've been asked/told. Anyways, i want help. I'm thinking about going this afternoon or tomorrow morning.