Am I crazy?

My bd wanted to spend time with me so I agreed and when to his place. However, I asked him if he could watch our child when I go to work and he agreed. As it gets close to me getting prepared for work, he asked if I could talk to my mom to watch him for the night because he has on call and if she said no it’s ok. My mom was going through something and I didn’t want to bother her so I told him no. As he heard the answer he called his bm to watch our child and he would pay her. As he asked her I told him to drop our child off there and he told me he couldn’t and he agreed to pick him up but later said that I would have to pick him up. We got into an argument about it and I ended up dropping our child off (which he is in safe hands). My gut told me something wasn’t right and I checked the tracker on his car which showed he went to stores and was at his place for two hours. I decided to take my lunch break and as I arrive I smelled weed at the door romantic music playing so I opened the door and he shows up to me naked laughing telling me to leave so I slapped the crap out of him and left and went back to work. The next morning he picks up our son and I was done I packed my things and our child got out of there. After everything I started to talk to a guy which he is nice but he found out because I was straight forward and he got upset. When I saw him he took my phone and hid himself in the bathroom and read our conversation. When it was my turn to look at his phone he immediately started to tackle me for it and deleted a conversation with the bm that watched our child and with a girl named AM which I share the contact names appear when we was wrestling and when he was willing to let me look they were gone but now he is painting me like I am the toxic person. Low key it makes me feel like maybe I am by the way he makes me act but he acts like he did nothing wrong