Body Image & Self Esteem

I did some traveling to Europe in my mid to late 20s. Those trips were HUGELY influential to me. Before, my wardrobe consisted of anything I could hide in. I've always been slim & trim. When slim fit wears became such a big thing, I thought : Wow, this slim fit stuff is actually regular fit for/to me.

Anyway...my body size lowered my self esteem. Affects me to this day. What I found in Europe were people that looked like me, thousands of them. It was astonishing. I saw how quickly and effortlessly it was to talk to women, get them interested and earn a hot your guide to the real (enter city name).

I went home and gutted my entire wardrobe, shoes included. I began to get attention left and right from the opposite sex and the same sex. I felt some actual growth in my life. Since then I haven't grown much at all. Gotten older but that's it.

Now, I find myself divorced and trying to date again. Wouldn't you know it, my anxiety about my body image erupted after being dormant for so long. I haven't had any luck with dating. No dates @ all. Came across many disinterested or committed women. I believe it has so much to do with the self-evaluation of my body that's holding me back.