Insecure and Struggling

I’m scared to share but at this point, I can’t not talk about it.

I have been struggling with my self esteem, feeling discouraged and alone after have multiple crisis and personal emergencies.

Got pregnant and had practically no support willing to encourage me and assist in first trimester. I don’t live near family and friends are distant due to age, we all are 34-38.

I made the difficult decision to get an abortion and have regretted it. I had support to tell me to abort but all I wanted was social support.

I realized out of insecurity any advice felt like social support. Still struggling with insecurity and making decisions on a daily basis.

I am still struggling with my self image, feeling like a terrible mother, seeking validation.

I was just so afraid. Facing eviction. Was carless. Just issued felt like it was piling. Trying to balance, really want to keep my baby.