Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check In: Tuesday, April 9th, 2019 & Wednesday April 10th
Hey Self Harm Recovery Community,
It might be hard to find the positives but they are in there even if you start with something small
How are you all Feeling Today?
How has this week been for you?
Who do you admire the most?
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@CaringBrit Hey How are you?
Tired, restless, anxious, depressed, a little angry. Struggling. Constantly, like all the freaking time. GGRRR! Tired of it.
For only being Tuesday, it's been a very long week.
Have a good whatever time of day it is, Take care, yeah?
@mytwistedsoul
im good and heyy twisted
aww sorry to hear your feeling tired , restless anxious depressed little angry and struggling want to talk about whats going on
@CaringBrit Nah, thank you though. Don't want to take up your time
@mytwistedsoul you can post here if you want too you wont be taking up my time or can use book now to schedule a chat with me
@CaringBrit Maybe just here. To book a chat would definitely waste your time. It take's me too freaking long to put the sentences together sometimes. The privacy would maybe be nicer. But it's kind of ok to speak freely like this isn't it? Aside from cussing? A safe place and all that? No judgement? I mean, I can't imagine that anyone else can think less of me than I all ready do myself, so I can't see that it matters.
@mytwistedsoul
aww thats your choice and privacy is always nice to chat it is safe in 1-1 no judgement etc but you can tell me here if you chioose
@CaringBrit I hope you understand that it's not that I don't trust you. Wow, I'm sorry... that sounds so horrible. I haven't had many people I can trust to talk to. Any actually. Trust is another big issue. The 1-1, I book a time and then what? Do we meet here, I'm not sure how it works. I know it's my choice, but I'm really gonna have to think about this.
I did do something I've been wanting to though, on Monday. Which stirred everything up again. Because of the no touching thing. But I did get a haircut. Took over a year to get it done.
@mytwistedsoul oh no i understand for sure you book a time and we talk in 1-1
@CaringBrit All right, thank you. Take care
@CaringBrit I seem to spend a lot of time fighting with myself. Not sure why. Not sure why I brought this here. Not sure of much of anything any more. Pretty sure I'm a major screw up. Not sure how I can feel so depressed, but on the edge of a panic attack. I'd really like to sleep. Can't even sleep when I'm depressed. This has to get better at some point, right? I mean this can't be all there is forever. Just day after day nothing is the same, but yet it never changes. Does that make sense? Sorry, just needed to share that. Not sure why.
@mytwistedsoul aww your not a screw up it takes alot to share things especially how you feel sometimes people write how they feel then feel petrified to keep it there for all to see hugs
@CaringBrit oh yes all the time. write, erase, write, erase. we should be able to delete our posts , although this whole thing probably wouldn't work because everything would be blank. there are posts here with the twisted tag that I don't remember posting. Probably regret saying that too. Hey, thanks, yeah? Take care.
@mytwistedsoul if you want any posts removing you can ask a Forum Mentor
@CaringBrit Thanks. Not that big a deal is it? There's things I understand better now and could explain, just maybe not here. Thank you for your time.
Sorry I was being a pest.
Have a good weekend. Take care
@mytwistedsoul not a pest at all
Hey @CaringBrit !! How's it going??
I'm alright. I feel a little drained today. I had my performance evaluation today and I think it was okay. People are right, a music degree is no easy task!! Being a piano major is fun and all but it can really wear me out sometimes, especially in situations like these.
I'm really really tired haha, think I might take a quick nap before dinner.
Take care!!
@CentreMid
Hey there its going good
sorry to hear your feeling a little drained though apologise for the delay and awww i love music great choice but yes its definetly hard work
how did that nap go if you took it
feeling any better today
@CaringBrit
Well, the evaluation went well. I didn't get my mark, but the instructors gave me some written feedback. Lots of good things, lots to improve on. Overall, I'm happy with how it turned out and I'm glad it's over haha
the nap was alright. There's this one guy (he's a masters student I think) who always blasts those youtube vines/memes whenever he's in the student lounge and it woke me up. I don't mind memes, they're hilarious if done well, but that guy is super annoying because he just constantly plays them out loud. He has headphones too. Back to the nap though, I still slept for a solid hour though, so I can't complain too much haha
Indeed, I'm feeling a little better today
Take care!!
@CentreMid good to hear great job with the feedback too glad it went well
@CaringBrit well I went to rapid care and I don't have strep throat but I didn't have to go to school today. Peace quiet ice cream and movies. Snuggling with my pets. Mentally I just feel why. I want to draw but my wrist and hands really hurt so maybe later.
@LooneyArtimus
good to hear its not strep and yayy for no school at least you get rest and aww what did they say it was if not strep
@CaringBrit
How are you all Feeling Today?
I am doing ok I have been better, but I did laugh with my friends.
How has this week been for you?
So far, the week has been a little stressful. I have a lot of homework and tests.
@PurpleSnail
good to hear your ok and awesome you had a laugh with friends
aww sorry about it being stressful having lots of homework and tests arent easy but you got this
the 3rd q was who do you admire most
i am feeling up and down and all about today. this week has been hard bcos i relapsed on sunday. i admire my friend amala most for always being stable and secure and having confidence, she never seems to panic, even when everyone else is. she stays calm in stressful situations and i admire her for that <3
@25tallies
aww no sorry to hear that hugs if youd like one relapsing is not easy i understand how you must be feeling right now and awesome that you admire her too
whats your next step do you think since relapsing im here for you
@CaringBrit well just gotta keep going and try again, i finally managed to tell one of my friends and she was super helpful and said i can text her anytime i have urges so she can also help (she used to s-h so knows some good tricks for de-stressing and stuff) <3
@CaringBrit
Hey, how are you doing?
❤️How are you all doing today?
Completely and utterly horrible. Im 99% sure none of my friends care about me and my thighs are covered with scratches. I honestly dont know if Ill live past tomorrow.
❤️How has this week been for you?
Horrible as well, I had a math exam on Monday and a state writing exam on Tuesday, and Im pretty sure I failed both.
❤️Who do you admire the most?
To be honest I really dont know. I cant think of someone I admire the most, maybe one of my friends?
@plumApricot8108
heyy im good
sorry to hear your feeling horrible right now what makes you think your friends dont care
@CaringBrit
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How are you feeling today?
Okay, not too bad actually, I'm excited because it's my last day of term and I have things to look forward to for today and the holidays. I get to see a play with my school and then my girlfriend and I are catching up at the park for her birthday, I got her a mixtape vinyl where I burnt our favourite songs on a record, some donut socks, some rainbow bobby pins and a lip gloss.
How has this week been for you?
The week started really strange as I live in Australia and daylight savings happened meaning i needed to readjust by an hour, but apart from that okay, I'm on top of things and feel calmed however a little low
Who do you most admire?
probably my mum, she's very strong and works hard
How are you feeling today?
Okay, not too bad actually, I'm excited because it's my last day of term and I have things to look forward to for today and the holidays. I get to see a play with my school and then my girlfriend and I are catching up at the park for her birthday, I got her a mixtape vinyl where I burnt our favourite songs on a record, some donut socks, some rainbow bobby pins and a lip gloss.
How has this week been for you?
The week started really strange as I live in Australia and daylight savings happened meaning i needed to readjust by an hour, but apart from that okay, I'm on top of things and feel calmed however a little low
Who do you most admire?
probably my mum, she's very strong and works hard
@CaringBrit
I do hope your having a good day, I see your helping a lot of people, my entire life is kinda a wreck and on a downward spiral. I've been trying to stay strong but things just keep falling apart . I wont waste anymore of your time - your def doing something great here and I hope u can help these people.... maybe one day someone will help me, until then I'll be saving my end of the world cuz I'm always needed somewhere. Have a blessed day.
-Shortdogg