Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-in: Thursday December 19, 2019
Hello, everyone! Welcome back to another Thursday- the second to last Thursday of this year, can you believe it?! I feel like the time has gone by so fast.
1) How are you doing today? Please share with us whatever's on your mind that you want to let out.
2) Do you have any goals for the rest of the year? If so, what are they and how and when do you plan on achieving them?
3) Do you feel the year has gone by fast? Which months were the busiest for you, and which months were the most fun and why?
Please take good care of yourselves, do some self-care if it's needed and relax. xx
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I'm just getting angrier, on one level about what the friend of my aunt did. But on so many other levels about it just being another example that person don't bother to consider how I feel, or preach about honesty and just like straight to my face, or them expecting me to behave perfectly while they get to do whatever they please cause they don't have the mental capability or something.
Can't wait till I'm finally out of here, will have to wait, waiting is all I ever do.
I wish I could pretend like the new year's gonna change anything, but all New Year's does is delay everything by a week, waited 25 years already what's another week right
Also, just realized that the appointment that was cancelled yesterday is probably not gonna be rescheduled before the new year, since next Wednesday is Christmas. ... 🤯
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Having some pretty strong urges right now
Feels like the only thing I have any control over
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Richard I am here if you want to distract together... Your urges are there, but you can try and have control over them...
@admaiorasemper
I feel like resisting is almost more harmful than actually sh
Also feels like my meds are on an early vacation right now, I guess I'm not totally losing it so mission accomplished. All that matters is what the outside sees anyway
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
I understand why you feel that way... sh does make a release of our emotions possible, but you do not deserve pain... I am here to listen to you and those emotions, you can shout, curse, whatever you want. You know how to find me, I really mean it.
What matters is you and your life
1) How are you doing today? Please share with us whatever's on your mind that you want to let out.
Today's been pretty good (other than mood swings, I hate my period). I finished the last thing I needed to do for school pretty early in the day and took the rest off. I had some hot cocoa and read for a while, than I cleaned up my room and bathroom. I'm slightly irrateted with my brother, cause he thinks he's better than everyone else, but thats nothing outside the norm.
2) Do you have any goals for the rest of the year? If so, what are they and how and when do you plan on achieving them?
None that I can think of at the moment but I'm sure they'll come to me later.
3) Do you feel the year has gone by fast? Which months were the busiest for you, and which months were the most fun and why?
This year has definately gone by fast for me. Except for the summer which seemed to drag on for ages. I'm not really sure which months were the busiest, its all kind of blurry.
@rebecca947
1) How are you doing today? Not as well as I had hoped. Feeling very much like nothing is going right and I am finding fault in everything and everyone around me.
2) Do you have any goals for the rest of the year? If so, what are they and how and when do you plan on achieving them? Other than trying to get baking and gift making done and earn enough to pay my mortgage not much else. I've been working on my crafts at night while watching Netflix with hubby. The $$ thing is an ongoing struggle with no great solutions.
3) Do you feel the year has gone by fast? Which months were the busiest for you, and which months were the most fun and why? Every year goes by too fast. June through November were fairly busy with football season and birthdays which were also the most fun months. February was also very busy and fun because we were given concert tickets and went to see Lynyrd Skynryd (w/ Randy Bauchman opening), Bob Segar and the Silverbullet Band (w/ The Record Company opening), KISS (had a performance artist who painted stunning pictures to music).
@rebecca947 hiiii everyone, i hope everyone is doing well :p
question time!!
1) How are you doing today? Please share with us whatever's on your mind that you want to let out.
today im feeling good! this morning was a little difficult because im having some relationship issues and doubts + memories with an abusive relationship i was just in thats making my mind go a little crazy. its hard to trust now and i wish i could just relax on the inside; i get jealous so easily and i skip right to conclusions about everything! i also just feel like my boyfriend doesnt wanna talk to me and that hes been ignoring me.. i tryyy talking to him, but he talks to everyone but me and i feel like im just sticking around for no reason :( but i feel a lot better now!
2) Do you have any goals for the rest of the year? If so, what are they and how and when do you plan on achieving them?
my goals for the rest of the year are to study for exams and do well! tomorrow is my last day of exams this semester!! though im a huge procrastinator and dont normall do my work, im going to keep trying to push myself to study so i dont regret ittt
3) Do you feel the year has gone by fast? Which months were the busiest for you, and which months were the most fun and why?
as i was in an abusive and toxic relationship, it causes the year to go by more slowly at times but faster at other times. i think the faster times were caused when the same things kept happening over and over and i just kinda got used to it. the slower times were when i would just cry and whenever my ex cheated on me because i felt so upset. it was definitely the slowest in october because by that point i was so screwed up that i had to be admitted to a psych ward which was another traumatic experience :( a bunch happened afterwards too, but id rather not make this too long <3 things have been better and my new boyfriend is a whooole lot sweeter, but ive been having some trouble in the relationship thats causing me to kinda wanna break down again because of all the memories being triggered
hope everyone has a lovveeeely day! <3
