10 days!
longest clean streak yet, i think :0
i think i know why i've been able to do this, and the reason is kind of sad and hard to talk about. but other than that reason, maybe because ive been distracting myself 24/7. not exactly healthy, maybe not even healthier, but i guess it's a good thing? im not really sure.
kinda mixed feelings about it but im actually feeling good today, maybe ill get some stuff done?
oh also doki doki literature club is kinda saving me :D i love the game so much, the characters are really relatable, and it inspired me to start writing poetry!
@pw123
Proud of you! It’s nice that you’re having a good day today and feeling overall good. Also, literature club sounds so fun. I think it’s great that it has even inspired you to start writing poetry! 💜
@innateJoy9602 thanks!!
i don't want to share my poetry but i just wrote one i'm proud of :) maybe i should start a literature club at my school..
im actually really struggling here, i havent done laundry in at least a month, my room is disgusting, im not eating much, i have so much to do and i haven't done a bit of it. i'm hiding that behind little "victories" like hey i stayed clean and i wrote a short poem but that's no joke the only thing i did today. i didn't brush my teeth or drink water, i barely got out of bed, ate one meal and a snack. im avoiding sleep every night. :( to be clear none of this is a "bad day". i do this every day.
i think sh would actually help me.. like if i did it, i would feel more okay and more able to fix these things and then i'd at least have a clean bed to sleep on tonight. maybe. idk. i think it would make me feel more "allowed" to take care of myself and stuff, like to balance it out and all? that probably sounds dumb but it's true. nothing a person can say would make me think, no i deserve better and i don't have to hurt to do these things.
idk. i'm not functioning at all. is it related to being clean? maybe.
@pw123
Sharing any type of writing is a very vulnerable thing. So, I hear where you are coming from. But, if you ever do want to share any, always feel free to post it here. There are many poetry writers on here who often share and it’s always so nice reading them. Definitely a safe space<3
Starting a literature club sounds so cool. I bet it would be a great way to meet other like-minded peers. I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling though. But, hey getting anything done is something to be proud of. <3 Small steps are big steps. Feel free to message me if you ever want to chat. I’m here for you. 💜
@innateJoy9602
yeah i think i might start a literature club.. the problem is finding people to join, so we'll see i guess. i can't message you to chat because i'm a teen, but thanks for offering :)
