Broke my streak
I haven’t hurt myself in 1628 days and I broke that streak this last Monday. I dont know why but it felt right and it felt like an urge I couldnt control. I wanted to feel something. The sucky part was that I didnt feel any regret or any thoughts of shame. I knew what I did and I didnt feel anything. No shame, no guilt, no euphoria. I feel like Ive turned into a shell of a person.
@satvikv2000 Hey! I hear you've relapsed and you don't feel any negative emotions around it, it sounds like you were really hurting. I notice that you say you also didn't feel any euphoria, so perhaps this method of soothing isn't for you anymore?
I wanted to say congratulations for being SH free for 1628 days! That's amazing! And it's still amazing even if you have relapsed, that doesn't negate the achievement. Relapses are completely normal and don't mean you haven't made progress or you're any less strong - you're amazing!
Please reach out to a listener 1-1 if you're safe and want to discuss SH, or if you're in crisis please contact your emergency services or a hotline - here are some here https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/
All the best <3
thank you for your kind words and guidance
