Cant stop...
I sh and i cant stop since months now.
I posted already but as a quick recap: i sh 2 years ago. Than stopped and relapsed june. Than stopped again and relapsed in september. In october it got worse and since that i couldnt stop. My max clean days were 17 days since my relapse. I had a few incidents, one, which made me faint bc i lost blood and a recent s attempt.
Now since the last days my cutting got worse. I cant stop. Not in school. Not at home. At every little thing i go and cut.
I tried coping ***. None worked. I also got help from a listener who was by my side all the time since september but still nothing helps.
I feel like im stuck in this loop i can never get out of.
And help? Or advice???
@MinaChoo Does anyone in your real life know that you struggle with cutting?
Well my parrents knew when i cut 2 years ago. But noone knows my relapse in june and my cutting singe september.
@MinaChoo
I'm sorry you cannot stop.
And not seems to be working.
I know it's scary but you might need professional help before things spiral any further and to keep you safe 💚
I though about that.. but stuff will just escalate even more. My family situatuon woule get worse and i m not sure i i can go trough that...
@MinaChoo
You need to do what's best for you, but something safe 💚
Yeah i know i need to do sth safe. But im scared of the path ro safety. What if things go worse. What if my parrents get mad or we constantly have conflicts bc i asked for help. I cant do that again. Thats what im scared of.
But if it doenst stop at all i will eventually need to ask for their help i guess...