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ambitiousVase8607
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We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve
PathStep 41 Compassion hearts84 Forum posts27 Forum upvotes53 Current upvotes53 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2026 Member sinceOctober 28, 2025
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Hi! I like anime, pokemon and I do digital art! Currently struggling with overcoming self harm urges following a relapse after 6 years... I thought I was managing fine on my own but it's getting progressively worse so maybe I don't need to handle it alone haha

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8 weeks Free...then Relapsed
Self-Harm Recovery / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 March 7th
...See more I just wanted to share that I got really far this time. I'm a little disappointed in myself for going back...but I still wanted to post this in case it gives someone else a little hope.
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4 weeks and counting...
Self-Harm Recovery / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 March 4th
...See more I got really overwhelmed a few days ago and didn't want to feel like I was burdening anyone I knew so I texted the crisis like. They distracted me for 3 hours...I didn't relapse. Sometimes, a distraction is all you need.
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New Job...Good News, Right?
20 & Over / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 January 29th
...See more My dream job started becoming a nightmare 3 years ago. Foolishly I stayed, hoping things would get better....they got progressively worse. Last year around September,  my department was eliminated so they moved me to a different position.  I'm glad to still be employed but my new role is a living ***. I didn't get any proper training, my new boss is always disappointed in me and people are getting laid off so I'm wearing multiple hats and not getting compensated for it..I finally caved and started applying for jobs. I got an offer letter for one that pays almost double what I currently make. That should be exciting right? Well now I have imposter syndrome and feel like I don't deserve it and that I'll fail and get fired early on...I know I shouldn't be negative about it but idk...Maybe I'm just burned out
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3 Weeks Post Last SH
Self-Harm Recovery / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 February 2nd
...See more I managed to make it 3 weeks without self harming. It's getting better. The urges are becoming less frequent and less intense. The first week was awful and riding out urges felt nearly impossible. But ever since I started sharing some of the emotional weight with my best friend, it's felt lighter.  I'm trying my best to avoid making her my "therapist". I don't tell her I'm having urges when I reach out...I just make light conversation until it goes away and I've noticed, now my first instinct when I feel overwhelmed is to text her literally anything opposed to wanting to cut. Lol I feel like I'm rewiring my brain or something 
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A Tattoo Idea for My Coworker
Arts & Crafts / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 July 31st
...See more I just wanted to share this little drawing I did. 
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YAY! They're healing but the saying goodbye is...sad??
Self-Harm Recovery / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 January 18th
...See more I relapsed after 6 years of being free from SH. I was 5 weeks free and then I failed again about 2 weeks ago so the count has restarted. I had been isolating and trying to deal with everything on my own... I finally accepted that being alone with it was making it worse. Anyway, I've opened up about it to a few close friends and my best friend has been checking in pretty often and encouraging me to share the stuff that stresses me out. I've been feeling alot better lately...my scars are healing and I feel a weird emptiness about it that makes me want to continue...I know that's not a smart or kind decision.  Anyone else feel weirdly sad as the scars fade? And how do you deal with it?
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Late 20s Suck
20 & Over / by ambitiousVase8607
Last post
 June 2nd
...See more Idk what the heck happenes after 25 but it's crazy how things you used to do affect you so different now. I used to be able to put my head down and grind. Ignore feelings,  pain, people and work endlessly. Now I hit burnout like crazy... give me back that early 20s stamima!
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