Figured it out
I think I've figured out what my trigger is. It's my mother. She’s constantly criticizing me, twisting everything I say, and turning it against me. I’ll say something totally “depressing”—like today I said, “Why should I do that when you’re going to do it anyway…”—because she does everything for me, and then she lashes out at me, saying I’m good for nothing. She’s always complaining that she does everything, but when I say I’ll do something and don’t do it within 5 seconds, she gets *** off, yells at me, and goes to do it herself.
Why cant i see the replies 😭🙏
@elka1ska
Hi, what do you want to hear, friend?
I dont even know anymore, nothing helps at this point..
@elka1ska
Do you have close relationship with your mother?
Do you afraid of her?
As far as i know self-harming has deep roots, not just issues with anybody.
I wanted to be close with her, but every time I came for help, she just told me that I am too sensitive, like sorry, but when someone tells me "ky$" i am in fact going to cry. I am not afraid of her, because I know she wouldnt do something physical to me, but I am a little bit scared when im on my phone and i hear her footsteps. I just think that Im always in trouble.
@elka1ska
"She’s always complaining that she does everything" - possibly, she is tend to vicimize herself.